10.08.01-3:47 p.m.> I know that I havent been the best friend too critical at times too cynical Im so tired these days so tired of not having you around and theres not a day that passes where I see/hear/feel/smell something that makes me think of you and my heart twists itself into a knot and Im sick to my stomach thinking about what I did to you how horrible I was how I was too busy staring off into the distance to see you laying yourself at my feet giving every ounce of yourself to other people I was so selfish and angry at the world thinking it owed me something that I was so incredibly special different from everyone else no one would ever understand but you did and I never saw that Im so sorry - you dont ever have to forgive me I just wish you could look me in the eye
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