05.27.02-12:01 a.m.> I would like to be able to sleep for once without being bogged down by my thoughts and my fears and the what ifs. I would like to look as happy as people do in pictures. I would like to not be so scared of being close to people. I would like to not be so obsessed with death and sickness. I would like to rewind to my birthday and undo the traumas that are unfolding into messes in my living room on a nightly basis. I would like to trade places with her,just to ease her fears, because it kills me to think about what she must be thinking about. I would like to not be so tired. I would like to be able to keep my room clean. I would like to be energized and motivated even. I would like to not complain so much and criticize so much. I would like to be a better friend. I would like a lot of things,apparently.
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