09.17.02-4:53 p.m.>

I miss my brother like alot.

more than I thought I ever possibly could and hes only been gone for a few hours, and Im still so mad at him,for being so irresponsible and Im so frustrated every time my brain tries to seperate itself from the anger, because I hate changing my stance on anything ever.

I need such serious help.

Im angry with him,because him not being here HURTS, it hurts me more than anything else has ever hurt me in my entire life and I wish I was exaggerating.

More importantly, I dont know whats at the bottom of this.

I hate that this is consuming me.