12.01.02-10:01 p.m.>

So I bought the new Naked Chef Book and have come to one realization...

that though I love to cook and am very enthused about the idea of an end product that people will enjoy and compliment me on, I just dont have it in my nature.

I dont.

I'm bad at following directions, I'm impatient, and about halfway through I always get bored.

Theres a particularly interesting recipe for banana honey bread that I delved into yesterday and well lets just say that it didnt quite turn out the way I thought it would.

I guess perhaps that this is a metaphor for my entire life.

Nothing turns out the way I think its going to.

I have to admit it becomes a tad discouraging at some point.

Now I know I do more than my fair share of whining/complaining about things.

Yes, I realize that essentially its me that has to make changes in my life.

Its just...

all. so. tiring.